Friday, April 2, 2010

And the day slips by...

Time is slippery...rushing past in a great wind when I wish it were calm.  Or stretching out the lonely, empty hours when I wish for reprieve from them.  It's this perception of time that leads me to believe that it's not as grounded and absolute as we'd like to think.  Of course several quantum theories support that but science aside, time seems no more limiting than an idea and also every bit as limiting as an idea.  That is to say it's up to you, or more likely your attitude, if time will be a limiting factor or not.  I often get stuck in the "chicken or the egg" quandary.  Do events unfold to me because I expected them to or do I expect them to because they will and I sense it?  Or is it the more paradoxal option?  Is it both at once?  I suspect the latter is clearly the answer, but it's an answer I can neither comprehend nor make use of at this point in my personal evolution.  But there it is.

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Hellish Demons

I don't understand boys and their video games.  Brendan...the very poster boy of peace personified is upstairs playing a video game.  There are sounds of demons and hellish screams floating down the stairs.  I tell him I don't understand how he can be so peaceful and yet actually want to play that bloody game and he replies "There has to be a balance in the world."

What?????

Saturday, February 27, 2010

The Mystery of The Mis-Named Months

Anyone who is even somewhat familiar with latin roots recognizes sept as seven, oct as eight, nov is nine, and dec as ten.  So why is September the ninth month, October the eighth, and so on and so forth?  I've wondered this for a few years now but have never taken the time to look it up.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Invincible

The things I'm afraid of secretly thrill me.  Although I'm usually too afraid of them to realize this.  Only with the advent of spring does this little secret appear from time to time through the mist, making my heart pound with the knowledge that I really am invincible.  There is really nothing so satisfying as to absolutely squash adversity underfoot with a sneer.


It is only by going down into the abyss 
that we recover the treasures of life.  
Where you stumble there lies your treasure.  
The very cave you are afraid to enter 
turns out to be the source of 
what your are looking for.
~Joseph Campbell~

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Limbo

February 20th until March 20th is limbo.  Everyone is done with winter but spring never shows up quite that early.  It feels...eerie.  Like an in-between time of nothingness and waiting.  What is supposed to happen during this time outside of artificial human stuff?  Nothing!  I suppose spring is busy in the bud, out of sight, getting ready to explode but we don't see that.  Are we supposed to mimic that?

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Money, Money, Money

The world will never cease to create things for me to spend my money on.  It's up to me cultivate wisdom on the matter. 

I always think I need new shoes.  Boots with heels that don't slouch because the ones I do have are slouchy and don't look right with dresses.  And pants that are one size smaller so they fit right and make my butt look better.  And a new coffee grinder because the blades broke on the old one, although it still works.  And knee socks.  To wear with those boots.  And peppermint essential oil for soap and maybe a new mold for the soap while I'm at it.  And some new windshield wipers for the car along with a new turbo.  And how I want a new rug for the living room!  And a vacation out West.  It really never ends.  I could go on and on and on.  How annoying.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

A Milestone

I've come to a point in my life where I don't require the contrast of opposition to appreciate the present.  There was a time when working 2 weeks straight would have made me appreciate a day off so much more.  But the reality is, I really appreciate a day off whether I've been working two weeks straight or not at all.  Ten months of unemployment had me waking up every single morning thankful for that day off.  Maybe that's a bad example.  But it's true.

Friday, January 8, 2010

Because I'm just in one of those moods...

I got fired from my last job because I publicly (however, not at work) insulted the intelligence of the I.T. guy.  He decided to make things up to get me fired and did.  He cut and pasted things and twisted facts and took advantage of the fact that hardly anyone at that company understands technical talk.  He was a nasty little mole and then didn't even have the balls to be in the trial when I tried to fight it.  He sent his young protege instead.

Of course I shouldn't insult anyone's intelligence.  It's not nice.  However, the action was disportionate to the offense.  My observation of the day is that he had a very, very delicate ego that was very easily damaged.  Maybe he was unsure of himself in his position because he was an older gentleman.  Or maybe he's just a jerk.

I'm just thinking back and noticing how much money the company spent as a result of one man's bruised ego.  Funny.

Friday, January 1, 2010

Our Awareness...

as a people seems to be growing.  On one hand, there are flocks of idiots...both the obstinate kind and the oblivious kind...but each individual, stripped of status, affiliation, and labels, seems to be stretching in an awareness proportionate to their identity.  I notice not just an ideal of peace...I notice peace itself in the most unlikely of places at the most inappropriate of times.  The world is falling apart and the world is getting better.  It depends on where you look.